Kimmy's Ponderings

I use to feel that if you didn't like my 'lasagna', well then that meant that you didn't like me. I thought who I was, was in what I produced and my identity was in what you said about me/the 'lasagna'. The two were one of course! I have come a long journey down the pasta road of life. Today by the grace of God, I am not my 'lasagna.' I give you the right to hate it even spit it out. Go ahead tell me it's dry, I'll offer you more Marinara on the side. I hope you like it, I hope you love it, I think it rocks. BUT I am content and my contentment is not based on what I produce. Who I am is founded upon what God says of me and Who He is. You think I'm competing with you? Are you serious? No way! These are your vain thoughts. I understand, I use to be where you are back at the 'lasagna.' I have compassion, even though it twinges that you judge me. I wish you could see my heart, but only God can. It's Ok. God the Gardner of my heart...

"When I cannot understand my Father's leading, And it seems to be but hard and cruel fate, I Still I hear that gentle whisper ever pleading,God is working, God is faithful, ONLY WAIT."

"Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved?" (S. of Sol. 8:5). I loved reading this scripture today. Love this verse it is one of my favorites. Today it is a fresh reminder of God's faithfulness to complete the good work he began unto completion. He will make me to lean all the more upon Himself. That's what He does, He loves when we are a leaning people. You and I are called to lean. Way too often we lean upon everything and anything else but Him. O that we would be that leaning people...a people leaning in total dependency upon our savior , a people weaned from self sufficiency, that have stopped trusting in their 'horses' and 'chariots,' but a people that trust only upon the name of their God and they have learned to run into that name for every need and to obtain mercy and grace for every need. They ask as they see her, 'Who is this?.'.....The bride is not seen and she is not recognized because she has been ...

I longed to walk along an easy road, And leave behind the dull routine of home, Thinking in other fields to serve my God; But Jesus said, "My time has not yet come." I longed to sow the seed in other soil, To be unfettered in the work, and free, To join with other laborers in their toil; But Jesus said, "'Tis not My choice for thee." I longed to leave the desert, and be led To work where souls were sunk in sin and shame, That I might win them; but the Master said, "I have not called thee, publish here My name." I longed to fight the battles of my King, Lift high His standards in the thickest strife; But my great Captain bade me wait and sing Songs of His conquests in my quiet life. I longed to leave the uncongenial sphere, Where all alone I seemed to stand and wait, To feel I had some human helper near, But Jesus bade me guard one lonely gate. I longed to leave the round of daily toil, Where no one seemed to understand or care; But Jesus said, "I ...

Led Worship this past Sunday. This week in Service we sang the popular worship song, 'Take My Life.' It is a beautiful prayer asking God to form ,transform and conform us into His likeness; A cry for holiness, faithfulness and righteousness. When we sang the verse that asked for Righteousness, I was reminded that we are already made Righteous by the Blood of Christ. We already stand 'complete though incomplete.' 'Done yet undone.' So what is the righteousness that we are singing about, that we are hungering for? 'And to her was granted that she should be arrayed in fine linen, clean and white: for the fine linen is the righteous acts of saints' Revelation 19:8 In our compartmentalization of worship in the church we are left with a focus upon what we do ...the Sunday morning outward expression of worship. But God calls a people and gets to the root of who they are. He wants to free us up, grow us up and bring us into maturity as believers. Who we are pr...